Free Write 2-5-13

I am both dreading and anticipating the next month and a half for my basketball team.  The seniors have on the team have played together since 6th grade and we are the most tightly knit group of girls.  We have struggled this season to find and play with the chemistry we have all so highly depended on the last 6 years of our life.  There has been more inner conflict than ever before and we seem to be caring more about the individual than the team.  This season has especially been hard for me because I feel like the responsibility of keeping this chemistry going and keeping up the intensity and focus is mine as a captain.  Unfortunately I feel like I have failed my team in this way because instead of gaining the girls respect I am losing it.  I have tried too hard and forgotten the reason this team is so talented in the first place.  We are truly a "team" and we have intensity and focus when we are playing together.  The most important thing I can do is display intensity by example through my play and just encourage the girls to perform at their best.  The bottom line is, I need to realize I cannot shoulder this team on my own.  The seniors on this team need to to trust each other and together we will get this job done.   Us seniors have 6 more games in our regular season and from there on out anything can happen.  We need to play and trust each other to get the job done and really play every game like its our last!!